The Trip of Kelen

after a few days of late nite

2010-10-17T20:20:00.003+08:00

hmmm finally im free to blog today~~ yawn.. for the past 1 week been sleeping like around 4-5am =.= madness!! yes i know~~~ oh well... super tired now~~ lol!

Oh well recently I get to be closer to this girl i knew from Secondary School~~ funny... like after so long and we suddenly get closer =.= oh well that's out of the point..

Anyway she seem to be the type of gal that is pretty crazy at times yet bring me much fun.. lol i think both of us being Aries contributed alot to this. As time goes by.. i start to miss her.. hmmm weird... have no doubt that i pretty like her..
Yes ah chan u got it right.. so is wenting =.=

i think our relationship makes a jump when we hang out sooooo often.. ok practically everyday..
hmmm does tat sound like a "green" light to ask? lol

but she dont seem to be ready to be in relationship.. at least the last time i asked..

oh well i shall try again after her exam... =x

Anyway it been a long while since i last step out of singapore!!! OMG! I'm getting bored to stuck in this tiny island!! RAWR!! i gonna plan something really soon...

I also start to be more concern about saving and stuff... sigh.. i think i took up pretty much saving plans until i think this is totally unnecssary!! sigh if i have to cancel now i gonna lost money~~ should i even cancel it!? cant see the money after 10 years is so painful... someone is abt time i should start save for my future expenses such as wedding and car~~

Man... suggestion.. should i cancel my existing plan?

freaking shag..

2010-08-21T05:05:00.003+08:00

I think i'm simply going to be overloaded soon.. the time i blog this... is the actual time i juz reach home.. still with my jacket.. and my jeans on... omg stupid work!

Today been hearing a lot of complain by my team mate... oh well.. life is sooo unfair.. some pple who seem to be useless and not trustworthy to assign more work... gets no work but still drawing the pay that pple like us who is working like dogs should draw instead...

sigh... nothing i can do abt this but to blame myself into stepping into this pile of shit.. oh well something to be happy abt is the pple been working and learning from are very nice and interesting pple... so in a way im glad i change my job.... but this happiness will not last very long i guess...

In 5 more hours... i will be heading to a seminar on regards with immigration to aussie... a place i would love to spend the rest of my life on.... since i already gave up all hopes in singapore..

Sometime i wonder... if i were to migrate off... will she still think of me? sigh... she always want to go there... oh well...

Wenting is almost on her way there... so myself and zihao will join her next i hope.. lol.. to start a new life seem scary but life is all abt adventure isnt it?

i realise she been posting after i post something.. is this juz coincidence? Maybe we miss each other due to misunderstanding or maybe we just took a detour... time will tell.. at least to me.. i'm still on the same path with no cross-junction ahead.... juz yet.

Stupid me

2010-08-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

Today... 3th August 2010.. after 3months and 19days since she told me she likes him... i never had a week without thinking about her... OK! U WIN! i still love u! and FML!

it was not long ago since she officially told me she is with him... Yes~ i already see it coming... i cant stop myself from being sad! WHY!?

I know i will be sad if i see their picture together BUT I STILL GO ahead and SEE!!! and now i feel extremely terrible....

Steph has been telling me again and again to let her go... I KNOW! I KNOW! i know in term of rational i should just let her go... BUT I CANT! she said is a rational over emotion... but u guys know me by now i AM a emotion side of guy... sometime i feel like i am the woman more than a man in a relationship... not that xiao sha...

When i was in poly... this friend of mine... Albert.. he was said.. it took him 3 years to get over the past relationship... i never knew why... so now i get it...

i really dont know when will i ever get out of this shit......

I put my msn nick. i have get over my sadness... time to get new one... im so trying to tell her that i am moving on... try to act as if nothing happen to me..

but the matter of fact is... no... i cant act as if nothing happen to me... i cant go out holding another person hand at all... i cant really put my heart into liking someone when there is a person parking in my heart with a season ticket without expiry date.

i have been thinking abt her alot today.. dont ask me why... i dont know either...

i want to know how is she.. but i know if i start asking... there will be no end to my misery.. though happiness is only a second when she reply.

Please spare me from all this thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! once again.. i hate myself to the max

Hurts

2010-06-26T23:58:00.002+08:00

Oh man.. i thought i have let it go... but Y am i still feeling so hurt when i saw words like she is in love with someone?

I guess its not so easy to just let go... I know i'm doing something stupid.. but i just cant help it..

Yes.. i admit.. i do miss her.. i do want to show her concern again... But I am trying my best not to... ITS so tough...... Y am i back to the down time again? i guess i just had too much of her in my head...

Kill me pls... suddenly life seem so dark... =(

Post Dive trip & recent activity

2010-06-23T16:08:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhh finally... though i said i might not have the money to go for sibu... still manage to fork out some... lol.. but gonna be a tight month=x

Not a bad trip beside the accommodation abit disappointing... other than that.. the rest is well.. i have upload the picture in my fb!

Recently super busy coz my supposingly "teacher" in my new department fly off to Fuji for some work trip and left me hanging with all his follow ups... lol

On my 2nd and third week.. i have been doing his job without knowing what happen.. LOL.. so funny.. and I also glad that i have this chance to try out on my own and learn from there.. at least i'm not total lost.

Ok... now i planning on Redang!! lol.. JULY... cant wait.. =)

Trying to keep myself busy and occupied.. =) and would love to know my friends more.. esp those i know for years... but doesnt know them well.. i think is also abt time =)

OK back to work... see ya~

Busy~

2010-06-02T09:24:00.002+08:00

wah haven been updating since.... lol i forget abt it... oh well.. life get more and more busy as i tried to keep my schedule as pack as possible.... damn... i forget abt the budget part =x

oh well.. simple update is that i went zoo.... science center... ubin for the past 3 weeks.. LOL i think i only left with bird park and reptile park that i still refuse to step in... =x

Ubin was the killer of all the outing.... Lol... shag the hell out of me.. oh well is pretty fun btw...

Anyway i transferred to a new department and life is getting slightly more busy... i hope i still can afford time to go for redang trip =)

Sibu was due next week... but dun think i can afford the money to go =( how sad!

Hopefully sibu dun go sinking into the sea due to global warming... =x'

Anyway got to go work! enjoy everyone! It's mid week le!!!

Sorry

2010-04-29T21:07:00.002+08:00

Sorry everyone.. i let u all down and myself down... when i go past NLB today... i realise i still feel hurt... a moment of pain on my heart came in silently and painfully. Esp when i get out of circle line and realise the path i took is the path she shown me to NLB.

It doesnt come and go... it comes in and stay.... i was even worried that i would run into her... damn it... y am i being so coward!? simply hate myself for it...

Haven been blogging these 2 days not becoz I am lazy.. juz schedule abit tight plus pretty tired...
Finally had my gelare Waffle... had the same ice cream she introduce to me.. but this time is with Wenting... ahhh ty for being there with me.. although u really eat alot in bali and willing to eat more with me first before ur exercise =)

I was so sad when Wenting say my cup walker isnt tat nice after all... My Beloved Cup Walker with pudding!!!

Yesterday went to collect my diving equipment... wah i start to realise im getting fatter.. cant go into my M size suit le... shit... time for some runs~~~

Went to look for eileen after tat... ahhh seem like she going to be more busy when her sch start... so i know who i shouldnt look for next time for outing =x

I cant wait to go Tioman tomorrow.. i really hope that can help in healing myself out of this pain...

If time can go back... i wish i would love her more than i did.............

completed

2010-04-25T19:23:00.003+08:00

Today.... Sunday 1900hr. I listen to this song... 过火 by Jeff chang.

I cried again. yes i mean i cried. Is so hard to for me let her go... so hard...

I watch through my video clip when i took in S.H.E concert, i heard her voice... her laughter... and the image of her pop into my mind... how long has it been since i heard her laugh or her voice?

I maybe as happy as i am when im out... i realise i cant show pple my true sad self.. right after tat i heard a S.H.E song... as though they were telling me something.. trying to enlighten me..

I think i understand what they are trying to say... i promise this kind of sad blog will not happen again... and i will post the rest of my daily life here instead... oh ya i miss out a xiao zhu song... that i love and i find it useful in my situation now.. so now i will dedicate all these 3 song to zhang xiao mao... (she might not understand the words anyway...)

罗志祥-我不会唱歌

这首为你点播的歌
如果我先哭了
怎么唱到最后

是的感情不是k歌
音阶一字不漏
不见得感动

我也懂拿麦的手不能颤抖
曾握着就能感受你比我难过
谁写的歌词那么适合放手
我怎能舍不得

我努力唱完主歌
我忘了走音没有
我到底哭什么
哭什么明明搞笑的

我努力唱好朋友
我忘了是谁哭了
就算你不记得
这首歌唱完的是我

这首为你点播的歌
如果我先哭了
怎么唱到最后

是的感情不是k歌
音阶一字不漏
不见得感动

我也懂拿麦的手不能颤抖
曾握着就能感受你比我难过
谁写的歌词那么适合放手
我怎能舍不得

我努力唱完主歌
我忘了走音没有
我到底哭什么
哭什么明明搞笑的

我努力唱好朋友
我忘了是谁哭了
就算你不记得
这首歌唱完的是我

我努力唱到嘶吼
我不怕剩我一个
只要你能记得
这首歌给我最爱的

张信哲--过火
是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关於流言我装作无动於衷
直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回
怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞
伤痛我背
是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受
让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关於流言我装作无动於衷
直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心
你是否能够要得回
怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞
伤痛我背
怎麽忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞
才会陷入感情漩涡
怎麽忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞
伤痛我背

歌曲：别 歌手：s.h.e

我把思念轻轻上锁
再把回忆挂在门口
离开就不回头
昨天已经放在左手
明天装箱全部带走
今天我只剩我
没有人劝得住我
没有话想对你说
曾经相信相爱就能厮守
如今却像一种苛求
离别的时候
别想太多
别想要企图挽留
别再探听我的下落
别用电话骚扰我的朋友
别向人说你爱我
别找我别等我

still pain

2010-04-22T19:46:00.003+08:00

First.. i realise using safari from IPhone cannot come in and blog... quite sian...

Anway i was on my way back home in NEL, while i was thinking should i stop at dg or serangoon, i saw Potong Pasir.... reminds me of that guy and her... i realise... even if i still love her... i still cannot forget about him and her... and it still hurts....

Ironically, i am still hoping all this is juz a joke or prank that she will come to me and tell me... happy birthday or something...

I read through my own post.. I written this " since i determine that mao mao is my last one"
i almost cried again... last one... the word seem so far away from me... I also said i wish to exercise lesser control on her so she can have her freedom.. but i guess i exercise it too well huh...

Sigh... looks like my target of 1week recovery is not possible... i guess the love cant be simply overwrite within a week T_T

Maybe

2010-04-22T16:27:00.004+08:00

I juz read xiao mao blog a moment again while I'm in office... i read through her old post... I really think I've been thinking too much and even doubt her feeling towards me.......

Maybe her feeling has faded as time goes by.. but i shouldnt suspect the gd times and the wonderful time i have with her... Shouldnt suspect if she did love me before...

I think i shouldn't treat her so badly after we broke up and i start to feel bad about it..

Maybe she did just treat me as friend but i was still in my own dreamland as i realized she does not mentioned about me anymore in her blog since 2010.

Maybe i have yet to do my part as a bf since 2010.. we stop chatting on phone and we stop talking till dawn...

Maybe this is something i need to keep in mind..

Maybe i take it granted that she can cope for herself... but in fact she still want the same kind of feeling and concern from me..

Maybe i overlook all this thing... but everything is too late... I'm sorry i overlook this feeling..

But till now... I still love U.. I Do....

Swim

2010-04-22T01:56:00.003+08:00

Yes i went for a swim today... yup alone... the fact that i enjoy water.. sun and beach more is becoz of her.. she brought all this into my life and no doubt I'm enjoying it... I should really thank her for this.

Today i took the goggle that she gave me... the feeling is so much different.. this is actually the first time i went to a pool without her... sigh...

I think even though my mouth say i wont care for her... but i guess deep down inside i still wish she is safe and sound...sigh.. juz cant convince myself to let her go and die....

Wenting asked me... y ur entries all so late one... reason is simple.. if i feel sad and cry now.. is easier to sleep coz im also tired rather than i cry early and awake..

ok la.. more of tears la.. cry is abit over le... finally my ceremony is coming.. getting graduated... but the most important person that i wish to come... can never be there anymore... oh well... i guess tats fate...

I ran through the dslr today and i saw all those photo we took at the indoor stadium and memories came back to me again... even then i couldnt see anything amiss from her action.. i guess i sux at there huh...

Whatever it is... fate has brought us together and apart.. i guess i just dun have enough of those to keep it going.. and as day goes by.. i feel less hate and less sadness in me... i bet i start to forgive and forget.. but i guess i still cant be friend with her yet... we shall see about tat...

ok time to head to pillow..body to bed... gd nite everyone..

??????

2010-04-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

The topic is ????? yes... ur computer is ok.. u are using the correct font.. is juz tat i do not know what is word that i can use to perfectly describe my feeling.

Here I am 1.31am cant seem to sleep and her picture still imagine in my mind... if u all have realise by now... i have yet to use her name.. till now... even when im talking abt it with my friends... i never used her name... I am so worried that i will think too much when i see the name again... even the word Teddy hurts... the very sound of her calling me came haunting me.... the very sight of her happily calling me with a smile hurts... these are the things that was so deep down in me that i couldnt forget about it.. i cant seem to forget her smile.. her hug...

But yes.. i do feel better today... so much so that i did not tear nor cry until im alone... until i think of her voice that seem to be imprinted in my head and couldnt shake it off...

Everyone has been telling me... Dun be so sad... U deserve a better one...( i guess this is a standard template for all heart broken pple)

But... do i need a better one? Does a better one makes me feel the same kind love towards her? I dun noe.. seriously... i dun even think i need a better one... but oh well.. it has already been in this state...

sometime i feel so fake on myself... even if i still feel hurts.. i have to hold a strong front.. for my friends. and for my family... I really dun wish to let them see.... I just need some more time.. more time to erase her words... her smile.. and her voice that kept in my head.

Today i am thinking.. if i should forgive her.... but................... the very thought of her with him.. is so.. unbearable tat i didnt think further and say to myself.. i guess there's no way. Trust is the foundation of my life... since she lost my trust... i guess there isnt any need bah.

Let me head to bed... with no thoughts in mind.

Maybe tomorrow be a better day...

Tired

2010-04-19T23:07:00.008+08:00

I dont know how should i feel.... today seem to be forever and every sec seem to painful.. i tear for her again... on the way back on MRT and i couldnt stop myself from crying at AMK hub so i had to go to toilet and whack it out.... did i mention even at work when eileen trying to find out from me? the thought that flash back to the time and the pain start to emerge..

The more truth i know.. the more pain i get... but i cant stop myself from wanting to know more and more... I really want to know how much information was hidden from me...

I really cant tell at which of time did she start to hid things from me... Even sometime I am thinking.. am i not gd enough to her? do i make her feel bored? thousands of AM i and DO i... but none came to a conclusion... I really wonder what really makes her change?

Today.. i get to know more information... something that was not what i been told and maybe even new to me... Pretty sad... I really hope this is juz an misunderstanding... maybe is i dont trust her enough hence causing all this unnecessary pain for myself... I sincerely hope i was wrong for the first time in my life...

I got a new wallet today though.. from my sis and ah foo... i cant thanks enough in my heart... everytime i took the wallet(her gift to me).. the scene of her telling me: "i didnt get your bdae present yet leh".."what you wan?"

HURTS! THIS is not something that a gf do if she love him..... I even wonder if she dun love me anymore so she didnt bother to do anything? she can even party till late when she knew she meeting me.. seriously... 17th April will never be forgotten...

Be it for the gd..(S.H.E concert is a big success!) or bad(Had to still endure someone that doesnt love me anymore)

Speaking of which... i even suspect i hear her saying y take him in the picture... when her fren was taking her picture.... really painful for me.. but i didnt want to fight... i even suspect i hear wrongly... but it doesnt matter to me now.........

I heard from sue that she sound like crying when sue call her... i was soft-hearted for a second.. but wait... y did she cry? A question i never want to know the answer.. but the thought of her being remorseful doesnt come across my mind at all..

But I have to say.. no matter how i hate her.. or how much pain she cost.. personal attack is never in my list.. so i'm actually pretty angry when i saw my sis status.. She should know me better that I wont like tat. So i got her to remove it..

I was listening to my MP3 and this song played... really touch my heart so deeply that i tear again... i got a feeling that the lady in front of me keep staring at me.. so i had to really stop myself before everyone come asking...

I should dedicate this song to all the sad soul in this world that just experience broke up... Hope u walk out soon...

(those in bold are the part that i feel is really what I'm Feeling)

YouTube link

思念是一种病

一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生试着体会
试着忍住眼泪还是躲不开应该有的情绪

我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

汲汲营营忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
借口总是拉远了距离不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚么蠢事情

也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离变成回忆

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病
一种病

多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

Start of a New Week and Hopefully a New Life

2010-04-19T14:58:00.002+08:00

Today is suppose to be a new week... and new working week that i should start to live my new life without a person I'm so used to having around with... come to think abt it.. we have left a lot to be done...filled with ideas of going aussie la... hot air balloon la... sian..... the thought of tat makes me tear in MRT.. shit.. such a shame.. luckily no one was notice me..

Maybe i was still hoping to hear from her... i was looking at my phone every-time i get out from bath room..hoping to see a miss call or sms from her.. but every-time i saw nothing.. it was a disappointment...

Stupid as u say.. i always hate her for not doing anything to make the relationship better but i can never let her go... every thought of her being in a difficult situation makes me hurt... but I'm sure she is in a good hand now... hopefully.

She might not even bother to see this blog ever again and maybe right now she is having fun... but does tat matter to me? No.. it shouldnt... but somehow or rather i cant stop thinking.. I know i can never be with her again.. i cant make myself to do tat...

Anyway I need to thanks Wenting for listening to all my whining for the past 2 days... and all the rest that try to cheer me up..

Last of all.. my sis.. i really feel touch that she has to take leave so i do not need to attend my graduation alone since the person that suppose to go with me is no longer there...

Yes I'm fine.. but i need time to forget.. but not forgive :)

Kelen the Teddy

2010-04-18T11:51:00.003+08:00

I guess this word will never re-surface again in my life anymore... ytd was a total breakdown... I sort of broke up ytd... u might be asking.. what is sort of? break jiu break mah...

Well... if u love a person alot... and u always thinks the feeling is mutual but end up not the case... can i consider it as sort of break?

I had a great lesson learnt ytd... When ur girlfriend wanted to keep privacy on her HP... is a sign that she dun wan u to know more about her outside life...

U know... is pretty hurting for a person u love that promise u.. this guy and me just a friend.. and will never like each other... wanted the very single trust u can afford on them and end up liking each other... I know! I'm stupid coz this is not the first case...

Not tat i didnt realise.. but sometimes when it comes to u... u juz wish to ignore this and think im thinking too much... she so innocent.. wont do tat to me.... Ha.. trust on the wrong side already..

When u are sick and she didnt bother to look for u... is another sign that u are out. Make things worst would be she might be actually hang out with her friend and tell her so called " bf" that she busy with sch.. and blah blah blah..

If the gal said she wan to concentrate on her study and couldnt commit to the relationship... i guess that partial lie too :) i've seen enough relationship tat even study cant bring them away coz they both make effort to it :) sooooo dun believe a single word!

So guys.. if u meet any of the above situation.. ask for breakup b4 u get hurt!

Although this blog was created for the person i loved....... and we broke up....

i guess i still maintain this site.. after all my friends are well awared abt this site too... so i guess i wont change much beside the name and style... stay tune for more information... i will be pretty active from now on :)

Finally!

2009-12-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

ahhh finally... it seems like ages the last time i post a blog.. lol... oh well.. i dont even remember its existance if not for Ting reminder.. lol...

oh well.. i found out something out of her though.. she doesn't have a childhood cartoon life beside care bear... i wonder how she go pass her child hood!? i cant live without cartoon that time for sure.. lol.. she was even crowned CNN gal when her friends knew she didnt watch any cartoon at all... LOL

Anyway.. today i was told by xiao mao that her ex-colleague picked up a hamster! OMG Hamster! LOL... When was the last time i raised it? Awwww.. i miss that furry ball creature... so i decided to take over from her colleague, Aunty Em.

This little fellow is pretty cute... running around as if he is hyper active... so excited to bring him home... =)

Now i got him a cage and some food and drinks... he cant stop drinking for past 2-3 mins.. i guess he is pretty thirsty after all the running... so glad he is in gd shape...

So now.. I cant leave home very late everyday coz i know my mum WILL NEVER feed it... lol.. so i better do it myself if not i be seeing a dead hamster... lol..

And YES... i had my L4D craving like finally! wanted to go but cant seem to get any pple... and i finally knew alex is really a beginner.. i wish he can just admit so we can watch out for him.. Classic Joke:

Ewan(lying on ground dying):" Treon.. help me leh
Treon( Staring at him): " I bo health pack liao"
Ewan: "Juz help me la!"
Treon(Staring blank): "How?"

Ok... first of all i ADMIT all new guys dont know how to help or use health pack on other pple... all pple start as noob.... BUT NOOB should ADMIT NOOB... dun act act... lol

Anyway... i love L4D2 due to the Infected upgrade... damn cool... cant wait for the next VS match... Alright i shall go back to my hammy le... see ya!

Office problem

2009-06-25T13:21:00.002+08:00

How complicated is ur life? The more u wan something, the harder u try.. but once u have them.. the longer u hold on to it... u get more bored every day....

Does tat sound like ur work life? Lol~~ bored indeed huh... Ting is like looking hard to find a job.. while pple like me are trying very hard to convince myself to stay on to the job.. lol

Office politics... it appears EVERWHERE... i guess as long as there are human being.. there is politic~~~ weird huh.. man cant seem to live without power... zzzz

Working... it is also very important who u working with and who is ur boss... 1 asshole boss and u are a free slave to them.. 1 asshole colleague spoils ur mood for the whole day.. see how important is ur environment?

Pple always say... juz bear with it... hey come on.. throw urself into tat situation and i tell u juz bear with it... tell me how u feel... U can never know how pple feels like unless u are in their shoes before... Ytd i met my fren, lee chun... she told me about how she felt at work... and how other colleague treated her... and i feel damn sad for her...

no wonder there is a chinese saying goes.. 吃的苦中苦方为人上人

Meaning to say.. the more u can take hardship.. the higher the chance u get to the top..

I guess politics even happens not juz office huh.. Anyone that have this office problem... juz think of this chinese line and continue to push urself harder.. u will get to see the fruit of ur labour one day...

EXaM!

2009-06-05T15:14:00.003+08:00

ahhh exam!!!! my exam is coming really soon.... damn i hate to say this but... i seriously haven prepare myself for the exam.. and it juz came to me like minutes ago.. lol!

project coming in too.. damn this is a cruel world.. lol.. i guess much is due to rushing this whole sem.. serious speaking i never had so much unsure in a sem compare to this.. looks like i have to cancel all my appointment and be a gd boy study at home le....

Have u ever in the situation whereby u have no aim in life suddenly when u wake up from ur bed?
Have u ever think of ur future? worried that u dun have enough money to get married?

This morning.. my mum asked me.. hey u spend money going on holidays... but u got save up anot? how u get married like tat? lol... i replied "i got saving account la.. got money one.. " but deep down.. i know i might not even go enough.. lol.. looks like there goes all my plan for more holidays! T.T

ok i stop here for now.... after eileen finish mugging.. now its my turn.. T.T chaoz~~

been a while

2009-06-02T10:50:00.002+08:00

Wah.. its been a while since i blog! lol!! i think the reason is pretty simple.. totally pack with all my work and sch!! crazy semester~~~ every week got something to do.. zzzz

Now that i have complete my lesson... everything seem to be coming all at the same time.. IPT session is rushing in...damn.. looks like i need to have a makeup lesson.. :(
This week is especially tight! everyone seem to wan to meet up this week.. for dun noe wat reason.. T.T

anyway Wenting is back!! now tat she is back.. i cant wait for my first free meal from her.. LOL!

Do have plans to go oversea soon... any takers? hehe

Morning thread

2009-04-18T09:33:00.008+08:00

Hi all... everyday i was hoping to get a sat so i can have gd rest.. have a gd sleep after so much activity happens during this week... mon and tues scuba diving.. it was a interesting experience.. having to carry all the tanks and swim... pretty cool huh~~

and today... thurs... a day before labour day! i get my leave.. so is mao mao.. and here we are wakeboarding!!! first time going for wakeboard... the stress is there.. lol but it seem to be a fun game!!! you guys should give it a shot some time soon... i bet u gonna love it... ( ok.. not to those who always fall.. :p)

Here you are pictures upload( so is the rest of the event...)

Enjoy guys...

ahhh ber... the organiser~~

tats me

tats daniel beside ber~

in water prepare to go~~

weee... i flying on water!

mao mao is a great learner!!

the Pro!

Genting Trip (Advanced present from Mao Mao)

2009-04-01T14:41:00.007+08:00

Oh Oh Oh.... Genting!! The last time i was there....... 10 years ago!!! OMG! 10 Years!!! hahaha.. much has changed there.. especially the hotel itself.. i do have a blur image of the place.. and indeed things has changed tremendously..

Anyway the first day i reached there.. ahhh cold air... wait.. hmmm it wasnt cold!? shocked i would say... didnt expect it to be this warm... to think i still bring my red jacket with me... so we walk to the counter to check in... AHHHHH so many pple!? it was crowded with pple!!! omg first time i seen such a packed lobby!!! and we actually have to que to take que number??? lol... stun..i get more stun when i managed t get the que ticket and realise we are like 100 ques away? lol..

can u juz imagine the place? lol.. gonna show u the picture when mao mao decided to upload the picture..* i think i get the camera and upload is much faster*

So we hang around while we wait for our turn.. so we decided to have a meal... mao mao legendary prawn noodle.. lol... she finally got her craving and i wont denied that its really nice... lol

hmmm the view of the hotel room is nice.. but kinda shock when i see the hotel room.. ahh so small... lol.. but nvm i wont need tat much space either..

the first day was all abt exploring the area.. lol.. ok lets skip the first part of the day..but before that...i wan to mention.... there is actually watermelon and coconut margarita..ewwww... coconut one sux... but we managed to finish it * actually mao mao drink alot :p until her face red red.. lol* lets shift to the next day... THEME park DAY!!! lol.. although i juz went sunway lagoon for the theme park.. but it cant be compared... genting theme park is much better... but abit too crowded.. so sian abit... juz queing up and stuff took us half a day.. kinda sad coz couldnt take the ride as much as i wanted... and the weather starts to turn... cold!? omg.. almost freezing and si mao mao purposely ask me to take the flying chairs... i was like freezing to death.. lol... i like the water log rides though... gonna upload them later part of the week... stay tune alright?

The arcade was fun too... lol.. was so stupid at first tat we only get a handful of tickets after spending 20RM on it... damn... but we were wondering how come pple get super lots of tix? so we walk around and see how pple managed to get them... and we found out the trick... hehehe.. and start to exploit it.. lol.. so fun... and i broke 2 records and get 1st on 2 machine!! proud leh!! lol..

alright i guess i let the picture do the talking... till den.. see ya!!!

*long awaited picture is finally uploaded..

Can you imagine 137 pple in que to get a room? lol!

Oppss.. we finally get our room while our fren still waiting.. :p

Our first meal... Kenny Roger!

I thought Mr MacDonald might get hungry too...

Watermelon Vodka.. Lol.. Never EVER try.. lol

Another kill drink.. coconut Vodka!

Grand Slam!!

I'm Flying I'm Flying!

First ever Fish Spa! Damn itchy la!

Whacking game.. damn shag!

I pawn all of them!!

Reward from all the arcade game!!

Safari Run 09

2009-03-09T14:06:00.006+08:00

weeee.... ok la.. not been updating as often coz dun really have the time to.. lol.. anyway... this topic is abt the safari zoo run!! wah.. most expensive run i ever paid for.. but well.. if u can see animals... juz take it as a entrance fee.. :p

anyway the day started quite well with the weather.. doesnt looks like going to rain anytime soon and its not sunny!! lol. cloudy cloudy de.. nice... so myself and kailin met up with her colleague and we took a bus all the way to zoo... weeee packed like sardine.. luckily we took it at interchange.. lol.. so we have the comfort of seats and watch others stand in pain :P ( apparently 99% are to zoo..)

wah crowded... and this kailin decided not to run but walk~~~ didnt wan to deposit her bag at the counter and we have to take the bag and finish the whole journey! lol.. we have everything but water in it.. and this is a big mistake... tell u later abt it..

anyway we each buy a cup of ben's and jerry ice cream b4 the run... errr.. walk... lol.. coz reach there way too early.. anyway.. so we met up with the rest of her fren and tata.. ready for the race!!! apparently they split the whole event into 3 waves...1st.. competitive...2nd relax jog.. 3rd.. family jog.. lol.. actually we wanted to take 2nd wave.. but there was way too much pple and we have to take the last wave! so anyway there we go.. our turn to start... we decided to take a slow jog... our aim? take picture of animal :P but sad man.. we started at night safari... no animal!!! how sad.... so we lost and moral and start to walk more den jog.. lol.. den this kailin insist taking her bag.. is having a bad time due to unlimited amount of slope run... lol

ok la.. i took her bag off her after the first km i think.. den attached to me for the next 5km... but to my surprise.. there is no water point!!!!! WTH... first 3km no water point!? shocked but when we see water bottles around the area lying around.. den we realised... they onli have this small amount of water for sooooo many pple? im quite sure this is a super overlook point for the organiser... so we end up walking the thirsty and tiring 3km.. now u know y is it a mistake when there is no water... i still told my mum no need to bring water as there will be water points there... my mistake for trusting zoo this much.. :(

anyway.. when we abt to buy drinks from the store there..... an announcement has been made that they overlook this thing and issue more water at the start/mid point.... cool huh... so we took a bottle each and start to walk liao.. lol..

ohh.. den we reach the zoo area.... animals!!!! hahaha.. kailin suddenly turn so enthu that she start running from point to point.. lol.. i was wondering where all her energy came from.. lol..
she keep saying.. i wan my polar bear~~~ i wan my penguin~~ lol... anyway below is some picture we took at the zoo.. enjoy~~~

First picture we took with the flower cow... lol

This shows that we are at the correct place.. zoo!!

A love between us and the elephant~~

Die die also one to join in the shot~

U see the white thing over there? its a bird.. first animal we shot

see the hand? its not juz us tat wish to take picture! lol

The legendary white tiger... i throw u inside arZ!

nice hippo!

Kangaroossssssss~

Hahaha.. kailin penguin!

we took a short detour to kidzworld!

Her polar bear!! damn blur picture T_T

finally finish!!

protective

2009-02-03T16:39:00.002+08:00

I realise i have been more and more protective of mao mao ever since i decided that she could be the last one i going to have... hmmm sometimes i find myself over doing it... like will get worried when i didnt get her calls or msg when the time strike 12... sigh.. im worried that if this carries on... this might turn into habits and she surely will not favour it at all.. damn..

anyway recently i find myself easier to fall asleep... getting earlier everyday.. used to be damn awake around 2am.. but now.. 1 plus... my head start to shut down le.. lol.. i think old liao la.. older pple cannot stand keeping awake for long hours.. lol..

i really wish mao mao and me can last until the day we die.. hehe... too early to say liao la hor.. but well.. its gd to have dream :)

well.. talk to u guys again... see ya~

Exercise Temper

2009-01-29T10:37:00.002+08:00

Looks like it about time to exercise my controlling of temper....

ytd had a fight with mao mao.... for some stupid things... its all started with.... calls..

tried to call her since i end my work... didn't pick up.... sms.. no reply... kinda worried and irritating since she went Malaysia and with all the robbery and stuff happening over there... u cant really blame me to get worried...

finally she called me back when she reach sg... and the first thing she did to me is to hang my phone.. sighz... later at nite after i sent wenting off... couldn't find her on phone again for the next 1 hr... fyi.. its already 12am... dont u think I'm supposed to get worried?

to her.. it might not be a big issue.. but on my end.. i wont know what happen to her... ok la.. maybe i think too much... but anyway i get angry and say her... although i much anticipate she is either watching tv or sleeping...(she called me and tell me she watching tv and phone left in rm)

its actually not much issue... but i end up choosing the wrong path again... sighz.. if i could juz accept it.. i think things might be in much better state now... i guess i juz wan too much of her.. anyway... i guess my new year resolution would be.. exercise temper....

oh.. ting if u happen to read this den.... gd luck in ur apartment and job searching!

very sad

2009-01-23T11:06:00.002+08:00

recently was helping mao mao looking for her degree... and suddenly feel very sad..

there is so much courses around tat could interest me.. and now i stuck in this IT line.. damn.. i should have change.. with the subsides of government... i think i wont feel so much pain now also.. rawr!!! y i so rush in taking course!? T_T

mao mao.. u better think of wat exactly u wan.. i can only help u in looking for suitable courses.... but end up u still going to be the one tat decide wat is gd for u... or at the very least.. u interested in.. remember.. there isnt any course in this world tat customise with ur taste...

*rush my assignment now...* chaoz~

super tired

2009-01-21T14:46:00.003+08:00

wah lau.. everyday like tat... now i feel super tired la... and i mean super tired........zzzz

everyday is like tat... work.. sch... home...sleep... work sch home sleep... cant even find spare time to even hao hao de do my own things... so low morale now~~ sigh.. when can i really have a gd break? even this sat also might have to go sch!!!! wth!!

life goes on... mao mao seems to be happy not to meet me often~~ lol... idiot~~ ok la... i go back to work.. see ya everyone~

*added a new visitor counter... so i know u came~~

sch sch sch

2009-01-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

wah.. very sian... it seems like everyday is all abt sch and more sch.. dun even have time for myself to update this blog until now~~~ sigh... anyway these fews day was chaotic... everyday go sch la... assignment dump in la.. phew... dun even have much time with my mao mao...

Soon Chinese new year will be coming!!!! hahaha cant wait for tat to happen.. can eat alot of ba gua~~ :p this whole week seem to be whole year to me la~~~~ wkend come faster already~~~ lol..

hurhurhur... haven got my enough time with my mao mao... always a few hrs... been a while since i had my whole day with her le~~ sad.... FEB come already la!! so i can go out with mao mao~~~ weee....

alright.. i stop here... shall post again when i have some picture to share.. lol~

Sentosa

2008-12-30T10:06:00.007+08:00

wah... super long haven been there to suntan so decided to went to sentosa with kailin and her fren steph, for suntan-ing... weee... fun and excited~~ hahaha...

Hmm.. once we reached there.. the sky looks threatening... seem like going to rain anytime soon... damn i thought.. na de go sentosa for suntan and it's going to rain!?

Luckily the cloud is a passing dark cloud and went right pass us and weeee~~ the sun is out!!!
Under the hot sun.. we lie down there... wah shiok arZ... den there comes 2 ai lian~~~ hahaha... talk so loud as though they were deaf.. and worst of all.. keep beo-ing us.. :shy: Lol... i was with my oakley sunglass... so she wont know i notice her beo-ing us..(actually i do it so obvious... tat i think she know lol)

anyway... i continue to knock out.. didnt bother abt her.. lol.. so i slept until afternoon and we played uno to kill sometime.. damn.. kailin is damn gd at uno.. well... i already expect that since she like to play board game so much... lol..

ohh ohh... the most interesting part is tat after the game.. we put up our suntan lotion and dive straight into the sea~~~ hahaa... was playing with water until i see a prawn stick on steph left shoulder... omg.. she is a prawn catcher!! lol... i took the prawn down.. put some water on it.. and wah la~~~ its still alive and moving.. hahaha.. so fun~~ was thinking of getting it back home or something but miss kailin dropped it and it went back to the nature... hai.. but also not a bad thing since it belongs to the nature anyway~~~

hmmm kinda fun... and i'm already plan for the 2nd trip this coming wkend!! lol... although i think i get sunburn real bad.. so much so tat im in constant pain after a few hours later... lol..

alright i try to get the picture from steph and upload and let u all see the prawn~~~ lol... till then.. i see u guys again next year~~~ bb!!!

me and kailin at the sentosa!

here comes the prawn~

Wonderful weather huh~~

A sad start of the day

2008-12-24T12:29:00.002+08:00

ahhh... early morning and i am very sad... Why? Coz once again... i didnt manage to call lin to wake her up for her morning event again.... dun understand wat happen to me... always morning event i couldnt wake her up.. but normal day is ok.. damn!! this time rd i manage to wake up.. bring the phone to the bed.. and i fell asleep~~~ only to be woke up by her sms telling me she went to bath... AHHHH.. stupid la me.. damn... its been 3rd time already.. i guess there is no more reason y would i be the primary alarm clock for her le... sigh~~~

anyway... today office very empty... rarely the case coz they usually will have party.. but this time rd it was held at science park.. damn.. so far away... but who cares.. lol.. its boring to go there with not much pple i know....

Ahhh... looking at the time now.. its abt 12:33 PM and almost time for me to leave... i hope tonite can be a great nite..

hmmm... speaking of eve... ytd lin ask me a very interesting question... she was asking if i must be with her during all the festival anot.. (i change abit.. coz i think she means this)
hmmm wat should i reply? seriously.. i would love to have her around me during this kind of time.. but it seem like she doesnt really wan me to be with her coz she might feel restricted and not so much of fun bah... should i juz let her go? chances are she might not wan me to be there either.. and i dun wan to be such a thick skin to keep asking her to bring me go.. i dun like tat kind of feeling... looks like i gonna let her choose her own program this coming new year.. even if she choose to be with her fren without me.. i guess... tats for the best of her...

hmmm... i've been thinking.. should i keep meeting her frequently or should i juz let her be her own..? she seem like wanting to go out so much.. and i hate the feeling of restricting her to go..
maybe i see too much of hui and augus whereby they go around anywhere together.. be it with who de fren... seriously.. kinda jealous on how they can both agree on that..

ohhh.. i re-played maple story for a while.. and i find it not too bad for a short while.. lol... juz a short while of enthu.. i know i will be sick of the game again after i finish playing tat new class.. pirate...

Pirate to me is a very interesting job/class... be it game or real life.. it always interest me... sailing around the sea everyday.. how nice is it? I almost become a navy officer that doesnt stay in singapore~~ if i went into OCS and became the navy officer.. i guess life now should be 180 change bah... i wont know my lin now.. alright i think i stop here now.. too much things to say.. but too less time to spend... gd day everyone!! Merry Christmas!!!!

Post Exam

2008-12-15T09:46:00.002+08:00

Ahhh post exam~~~ something tat u like if u know that u know u wont do badly for ur exam... yet something u hate when u know u gonna fail this time round.. lol.. interesting huh? My last paper.. was a chaos... Only 1 out of 7 exam tips came out... i bet u for those juz purely study for the exam is gonna kiss goodbye with the sem, coz the paper is all from the lecture note!!!

Seriously i dun feel happy for the post exam activities.... coz i knew im not going to score yet again... yawn~~ should have been more prepare... coz i sort of expect the lecturer to play stun liao~~ i remember i still tell amelia tat this paper is not going to be this simple lo.. where got all the tips come out one... like tat u test wat thing? the look Rhuei showing doesnt seem to encouraging to me.. lol.. anyway we juz still went to KTV... with haf the the guys going to die due to late nite study~~ lol.. it was crap... everyone juz wan to sleep.. lol

After tat i went down to Novena wanting to meet up with kailin coz i like make her not very happy that i couldnt really accompany her when she is sick recently... so i thought i could buy her fav flower... sunflower!! hehe.. took a picture.. but in my phone.. update later...

She seem to be quite happy abt it.. phew~~ i still scare she will scold me for wasting money~~~ but tats the first flower i gave to her lo.... so im glad she is happy abt it..

anyway... after all the meetings.. i went back home and my mum ask me to visit my 2nd uncle coz they knew he is not going to last any much longer... so we plan to go on sunday... so the plan with kailin was.. sat go ice skating... sunday for movie.. in the end... sat i overslept.. too tired :P was thinking of going down immediately.. but was stopped by my mum... she told me tat the doctor say my 2nd uncle is going off anytime.... and wanted me to visit him today... hmmm... of coz i will go down.. afterall entertainment can always be plan again.. so i drop by la.. wah.. i tell u.. his condition is really very bad.. he turned so skinny that i cant even recognize him.. sighz...

ok... i stop here... take care everyone.. see ya soon~~

No longer...

2008-12-05T09:56:00.000+08:00

This no longer be our blog.... changed to my blog..... so enjoy....

Yesterday i made my worst mistake of all.. i lie to kailin that i didnt make a blog b4.... sighz.. coz i never wan her to see my old blog tat actually spend my time ranting abt our relationship in the early stage... and now i have to pay for my mistake.... So sorry that... i will never ever do it again T_T

Anyway today.. its my first time press on the MRT red button that u pple saw at the advertisement for MRT terrorist act... they were suppose to talk to me when i press that button.. but no one talk to me leh... i thought it was faulty and abt to complain la... but one guy came running in asking if anyone press that button... alamak.. abit slack on their side... if really terrorist attack.. u expect a guy come running in? like tat the terrorist will juz activate the bomb la~~ =.= should be more discreet right? diao~~

anyway the reason for the pressing of tat red button coz a gal fainted suddenly reaching a MRT station.. cant remember the station but i think is raffles place or outram park... one of the interchange la.. anyway... she practically fell to the ground.. ouch~~ lost conscious for a moment and the passenger carried her out of the MRT and she woke up after a few sec... an auntie took out her "feng you" and rub it against her head.. and seem to be asking her wat happen.... looking at her embarrassed expression.. i think maybe its due to mensuration? hmmm... poor thing... gals have additional problem compare to guys... do take care of them during tat kind of time... and i suppose this is a reason y we should pamper our gf... :)

Exam is coming.. yet i have not much confidence in this... damn... i think i should start studying... soon....

Quite disappointed actually when i heard that kailin is not coming over on sat to accompany me for study... but i cannot blame her for that.. i cant expect her to accompany me... sighz... funny thing is.. although i been going through 2 sem without her accompany.. i dun know y now i need her so much~~

alright back to work.. time to change my title~~ :)

Introduction

2008-12-04T14:52:00.000+08:00

Kelen: I was enrolled into SIM and never thought i can get a gf in the same course as me... but i was all wrong~~~~

First day of SIM is rather peaceful.. i didnt spot any chio bu in class~~~ yawn~~ time for viwawa... lol... this carries on until this one fine day... i saw 2 gals walking into the lecture hall.. laughing their way in... the first thought was... are they frens? i think so.. if not shouldnt be tat close in such a short time.. take a closer look... hmmm pretty nice~~ both looks pretty to me.. but this gal.... caught more attention den the other.... however i didnt think further den that.. and decided to keep to myself.... and this is how i get the first impression of her... funny and cute...

WeeeEeeEeeEeee~~

2008-12-04T14:39:00.003+08:00

Kelen: First post on the first couple blog i ever did~~ Stun... dont know what to write.. but i decided to put down all the details of myself and my beloved Kailin Teo who is a girl that i know she could be the one for me....

Also taking this chance to put down whatever we feel in here that cannot be said out by mouth.. hope this gonna be gd :) anyway.. since there isnt any picture we took when i get to know her.. maybe let me start off by saying...... how do i know her :) well.. lets start with the 2nd post den...

Hope everyone enjoy the trip of Kelen and Kailin~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

*puff*